Post by billmcdee on May 1, 2020 5:26:19 GMT -5
Hello again friends.
While I am still going to be active as a contestant and/or celebrity on all the games I'm currently involved in, I'm going to be taking a sabbatical from hosting.
Some of my growing anxieties about the seemingly increasing number of uncertainties has slowly but surely taken it's toll on me in recent weeks, to the point where it has begun to manifest itself into physical problems.
Early Tuesday morning I woke up with chest tightness and heaviness, coupled with sharp pains in my abdominal region. I have been prone to ulcers going back to when I was age 11. Having some sleep issues as well, some nights lack of sleep during the week, and then it catches up to me and I sleep much more on weekends, just feeling drained in every way imaginable.
It was so bad that I very reluctantly took a sick day from work. I returned the following day though.
Long story short, between my mental energy being drained along with it affecting me physically, I am announcing my great reluctance in stating that I need to take a sabbatical from hosting Three on a Match. I would respectfully request however, if possible, that the thread remain open, but if it is archived, that's no problem because when I do return, I can pick up where it left off.
My apologies to all of you who are playing and for those of you who view. My apologies also to the three members who were slated to play episode 2 of "Your Number's Up". I truly am hoping some day to continue that series. I have plenty of question material for both shows, just big time lack of energy...
Also, to add to the anxiety, one of my co-workers was out yesterday until she can get tested for the virus. Seems her children's babysitter was in contact with someone with the virus. It was not disclosed to us whether or not her babysitter contracted the virus or not. I can only conclude that perhaps she did, but am not certain.
The reason game shows and some sports appeal to me so much is because there's fun in the uncertainty as to how things will turn out, but with game shows and sports both, you eventually find out. There's a finite time period (30 minutes, 60 minutes, 9 innings, etc.) until you know.
While we need a certain amount of uncertainty in our lives to make it more interesting, the uncertainties, which are numerous, brought about by actions taken as a direct result of trying to deal with this pandemic have begun to take their collective toll on me. The not knowing when things will return back to "normal", and concerns about whether or not my wife will be laid off after 32 years of service or being forced to take unpaid furlough...a lot hangs in the balance. With all of that endlessly weighing so heavily on my mind day and night, night and day...well you know what I'm saying by now.
A vast majority of information I get comes from vloggers and from one or two radio talk shows. It consumes me, all the news going on, not just related to the virus but other things as well which really make me feel so very sad and unsettled. I avoid all newspapers (even if there comes a day I run short of toilet paper Ha Ha) and pretty much all television "news". The vloggers I listen to, plus the two radio shows I listen to, present the actual facts, and each individual then expounds with their opinions and observations about said facts. My wife sometimes tells me I should take a break from it, but the way I am wired, I would grow more anxious NOT knowing than knowing. While a life without any uncertainty would be boring, a life with too much uncertainty tips the scales too much to one side which weighs down my heart and very soul.
I do pray, I do have faith, but never has it been tried for so much and for so long a period of time as this...then again that is true for us all I dare say.
And while it remains uncertain when things will get better for our nation and for our pandemic plagued world, I do know deep deep down that things will get better. Same for my hosting, I don't know when I will return (a week a month, 6 months...or anywhere in between), but I do know that there will come a day that I'll be feeling much more energetic and much more capable to return. If I forced myself to continue hosting, I would only be going through the motions, and that would be me being untrue to you, and untrue to my own self. You deserve the very best that I have to offer, and I do not want to short change nor disappoint you all my Net Game Central family anymore than I might have already.
Sincerely, respectfully and appreciatively...
Bill
While I am still going to be active as a contestant and/or celebrity on all the games I'm currently involved in, I'm going to be taking a sabbatical from hosting.
Some of my growing anxieties about the seemingly increasing number of uncertainties has slowly but surely taken it's toll on me in recent weeks, to the point where it has begun to manifest itself into physical problems.
Early Tuesday morning I woke up with chest tightness and heaviness, coupled with sharp pains in my abdominal region. I have been prone to ulcers going back to when I was age 11. Having some sleep issues as well, some nights lack of sleep during the week, and then it catches up to me and I sleep much more on weekends, just feeling drained in every way imaginable.
It was so bad that I very reluctantly took a sick day from work. I returned the following day though.
Long story short, between my mental energy being drained along with it affecting me physically, I am announcing my great reluctance in stating that I need to take a sabbatical from hosting Three on a Match. I would respectfully request however, if possible, that the thread remain open, but if it is archived, that's no problem because when I do return, I can pick up where it left off.
My apologies to all of you who are playing and for those of you who view. My apologies also to the three members who were slated to play episode 2 of "Your Number's Up". I truly am hoping some day to continue that series. I have plenty of question material for both shows, just big time lack of energy...
Also, to add to the anxiety, one of my co-workers was out yesterday until she can get tested for the virus. Seems her children's babysitter was in contact with someone with the virus. It was not disclosed to us whether or not her babysitter contracted the virus or not. I can only conclude that perhaps she did, but am not certain.
The reason game shows and some sports appeal to me so much is because there's fun in the uncertainty as to how things will turn out, but with game shows and sports both, you eventually find out. There's a finite time period (30 minutes, 60 minutes, 9 innings, etc.) until you know.
While we need a certain amount of uncertainty in our lives to make it more interesting, the uncertainties, which are numerous, brought about by actions taken as a direct result of trying to deal with this pandemic have begun to take their collective toll on me. The not knowing when things will return back to "normal", and concerns about whether or not my wife will be laid off after 32 years of service or being forced to take unpaid furlough...a lot hangs in the balance. With all of that endlessly weighing so heavily on my mind day and night, night and day...well you know what I'm saying by now.
A vast majority of information I get comes from vloggers and from one or two radio talk shows. It consumes me, all the news going on, not just related to the virus but other things as well which really make me feel so very sad and unsettled. I avoid all newspapers (even if there comes a day I run short of toilet paper Ha Ha) and pretty much all television "news". The vloggers I listen to, plus the two radio shows I listen to, present the actual facts, and each individual then expounds with their opinions and observations about said facts. My wife sometimes tells me I should take a break from it, but the way I am wired, I would grow more anxious NOT knowing than knowing. While a life without any uncertainty would be boring, a life with too much uncertainty tips the scales too much to one side which weighs down my heart and very soul.
I do pray, I do have faith, but never has it been tried for so much and for so long a period of time as this...then again that is true for us all I dare say.
And while it remains uncertain when things will get better for our nation and for our pandemic plagued world, I do know deep deep down that things will get better. Same for my hosting, I don't know when I will return (a week a month, 6 months...or anywhere in between), but I do know that there will come a day that I'll be feeling much more energetic and much more capable to return. If I forced myself to continue hosting, I would only be going through the motions, and that would be me being untrue to you, and untrue to my own self. You deserve the very best that I have to offer, and I do not want to short change nor disappoint you all my Net Game Central family anymore than I might have already.
Sincerely, respectfully and appreciatively...
Bill
