Post by billmcdee on Mar 22, 2017 11:53:56 GMT -5
All,
After a lot of time of not hosting games, nor updating games, I've come to the conclusion that sadly, the passion and spark that once existed for me in hosting games simply has gone dark, and does not seem nor feel like it will be resurrected.
I've outlined some of the reasons why in prior announcement posts.
Once my reigns end as contestants on current games that I am playing on here, I'll still lurk on here and watch some games, but I don't picture myself being too much of an active participant any longer.
I will be forever grateful to so many on here. John Bergman for making me aware that this site was created after Big Jon's ended up eroding away. Tony Lane for his encouragement and his inspiration for me to make my sets look relatively nice and aesthetically pleasing. Thankful to Doug Morris for his dry sense of humor which I appreciate, and everybody's assistance over the years with various things.
Forever grateful to all of those who served as contestants on my various games, far too many to list here. But I am grateful for you all and to you all.
Unfortunately, I don't know if it's a mid-life crisis now that I am 50, or the fact that my job's future is very uncertain that keeps weighing heavily on my mind, the fact that my son's struggling with one class in his senior year right now which may jeopardize his ability to graduate on time, some health concerns that I need to focus more on, including getting more physically active again, but no doubt a combination of so many things listed here, and other things a bit more personal as well, that contributed toward the erosion of what was once a tremendous passion for me, namely the genre of game shows.
This time of year, oddly enough, tends to get me down more. Usually seasonal affective disorder happens when the clocks get turned back and hour and it gets darker earlier. For me the opposite is usually true, I tend to feel more depressed when there is more daylight.
March 7th would have been my Dad's 82nd birthday. Dad passed away in 1978 at the age of 43. March 7th is also the day my wife's grandfather, who I was pretty close with, died.
March 18th is the anniversary of the death of my beloved grandmother Charlotte.
April 15th 2015 was when my wife's grandmother died. I was extremely close to her too.
April 21st would have been my mother's birthday.
Mid May is rough because of Mother's Day.
June 9th is the anniversary of my mother's passing (2001).
Father's Day always proves an extremely bittersweet holiday for me.
The 4th of July (Independence Day) is a tremendously difficult holiday for me to get through. For one thing, it was my parents' wedding anniversary. For another, one of my cousins who I was close to died on the 4th of July weekend in 1986.
July 15th is the anniversary of the sudden death of my Dad.
So from early March through mid July, I have a great many holidays or anniversary dates that sadden me greatly. The warm weather reminds me of having summers off as a youth, and spending time with friends and cousins. Sadly now I seldom if ever see them or even hear from them anymore. Just another grim reminder of how it is when one is 50 years of age.
Concerns about my son being away on his own at college also dampen my spirits, but it is a necessary thing for us all that he do it, assuming he graduates of course.
In any event, I didn't mean to turn this post into a mini series, rather, I wanted to give as complete an explanation that I felt at liberty to give to explain why the flame of hosting and the passion for game shows in general seems to be dousted in me.
Once more I will be ever grateful to you all and for you all. I wish, I hope and I pray that each and every one of you and all of your loved ones the very best that life has to offer, and that when you do have difficulties, that you are able to work better through them and not allow them to impact your passions.
Appreciatively,
Bill
After a lot of time of not hosting games, nor updating games, I've come to the conclusion that sadly, the passion and spark that once existed for me in hosting games simply has gone dark, and does not seem nor feel like it will be resurrected.
I've outlined some of the reasons why in prior announcement posts.
Once my reigns end as contestants on current games that I am playing on here, I'll still lurk on here and watch some games, but I don't picture myself being too much of an active participant any longer.
I will be forever grateful to so many on here. John Bergman for making me aware that this site was created after Big Jon's ended up eroding away. Tony Lane for his encouragement and his inspiration for me to make my sets look relatively nice and aesthetically pleasing. Thankful to Doug Morris for his dry sense of humor which I appreciate, and everybody's assistance over the years with various things.
Forever grateful to all of those who served as contestants on my various games, far too many to list here. But I am grateful for you all and to you all.
Unfortunately, I don't know if it's a mid-life crisis now that I am 50, or the fact that my job's future is very uncertain that keeps weighing heavily on my mind, the fact that my son's struggling with one class in his senior year right now which may jeopardize his ability to graduate on time, some health concerns that I need to focus more on, including getting more physically active again, but no doubt a combination of so many things listed here, and other things a bit more personal as well, that contributed toward the erosion of what was once a tremendous passion for me, namely the genre of game shows.
This time of year, oddly enough, tends to get me down more. Usually seasonal affective disorder happens when the clocks get turned back and hour and it gets darker earlier. For me the opposite is usually true, I tend to feel more depressed when there is more daylight.
March 7th would have been my Dad's 82nd birthday. Dad passed away in 1978 at the age of 43. March 7th is also the day my wife's grandfather, who I was pretty close with, died.
March 18th is the anniversary of the death of my beloved grandmother Charlotte.
April 15th 2015 was when my wife's grandmother died. I was extremely close to her too.
April 21st would have been my mother's birthday.
Mid May is rough because of Mother's Day.
June 9th is the anniversary of my mother's passing (2001).
Father's Day always proves an extremely bittersweet holiday for me.
The 4th of July (Independence Day) is a tremendously difficult holiday for me to get through. For one thing, it was my parents' wedding anniversary. For another, one of my cousins who I was close to died on the 4th of July weekend in 1986.
July 15th is the anniversary of the sudden death of my Dad.
So from early March through mid July, I have a great many holidays or anniversary dates that sadden me greatly. The warm weather reminds me of having summers off as a youth, and spending time with friends and cousins. Sadly now I seldom if ever see them or even hear from them anymore. Just another grim reminder of how it is when one is 50 years of age.
Concerns about my son being away on his own at college also dampen my spirits, but it is a necessary thing for us all that he do it, assuming he graduates of course.
In any event, I didn't mean to turn this post into a mini series, rather, I wanted to give as complete an explanation that I felt at liberty to give to explain why the flame of hosting and the passion for game shows in general seems to be dousted in me.
Once more I will be ever grateful to you all and for you all. I wish, I hope and I pray that each and every one of you and all of your loved ones the very best that life has to offer, and that when you do have difficulties, that you are able to work better through them and not allow them to impact your passions.
Appreciatively,
Bill
